I survived my exam preparation and the actual exam, but I feel like it has taken a big chunk out of me.
I always feel like I don’t do enough for my studies and in preparation of the exam and this time round it was especially bad, since I always feel like I don’t give the attention to The Girl she deserves.
So I feel in a bit of a spiral of:
- spend quality time with The Girl
- get enough sleep
- cook/eat healthy, prep food
- spend time with friends
- make sure my flat doesn’t look like a dump
- and other things adults do
All of this wants my attention and tries to takes time out of my day and then somehow I just have to realise that’s how things are and that a day has only 24 hours.
I can always try to do my best, but I have to make sure that striving to get everything done at a level I want to do it is not possible. I have to prioritise otherwise I’ll run myself into the ground.
Needless to say that while I was studying for my exam, this was my top priority and I didn’t workout or even remotely eat well.
I think when you have a sweet dessert with every meal, you are having a problem. Even my breakfast had a sweet dessert today, and then lunch and so will dinner.
I think my willpower is completely exhausted at the moment, I just need to let everything go for a bit right now. Clawing myself towards next Wednesday when I go on holiday for a week.
I don’t know how to conclude this post, I don’t know what will happen until my holidays, during my holidays or after. I hope I will be a bit more relaxed and the burden of having to studying will be taken off until October and all I can hope for is to come back and feeling refreshed with new willpower.